Let me start with wishing everybody a very happy new year 2009 in advance. I've got a competition at my office - One has to take a new resolution for the new year and the best resolution will be get awarded. I start to think what best resolution I can take so that I can get awarded and then get drifted away to many thoughts which keep revolving in my mind to divert me from research.
The world and the fate till now is very fair with me and my family. I've got a very caring parents, an elder sister - married and living happily, an elder brother - highly qualified but (perhaps) voluntarily not accepting small jobs with the sole intention to get placed in a high-profile job(and I am sure he'll make it). I've got a very good job- handsome salary, security, flexible working hours, profile of my interest(interest), many caring friends (No, I don't have gf or gfs if you suspect as I don't like 'oxford' meaning of it. Yes if you ask I do have many female friends) and many marriage proposals. So, what else I need. I really couldn't think up any resolution I should take.
And then I get a challenge me if I can prove if I can anyway differentiate myself from an animal - " Some tears can be wiped, some blood can be washed and life restarted. Indians are attuned to this routine for centuries, overcoming waves of invasion and carnages. Animals are better healed by time than medicine. Dawa se dua kabhi kabhi accha hota hain, as they say in Urdu-sometimes prayer is better than medicine. These clichés are parts of our lulling process, which we recite and go to sleep. After all, the animal must live and continue to survive. "(ref: http://maloykrishnadhar.com/do-not-wash-this-blood-do-not-wipe-this-tear-get-angry).
It badly hurts my ego of being successful figure, my self-dignity of being a respected civilised citizen, my proudness of being an Indian and last but not the least my chauvinistic view of being a 'male'. It takes away my sleep and I start searching for a single quality that can make me superior to animals except that I can be a part of fashion show as I've the choice to choose a cloth to wear.
What I did till now?? What we as Indians did till now?? Yes we've shouted slogans - we're descendents of great aryas and rishis, our culture is the best... blah blah but ever we tried to protect the values of those established by them? Did we ever tried live or even understand the culture, the spirituality, the religion whom we've often found talking? We followed and worshiped Rama, Krishna, Buddha etc by different-different names but never cared to imbibe a single quality of them. We never understood the basic philosophy of Indian religion that one can reach the status of God if one starts adopting Godly qualities though we worshiped Gyaneshwar, Tukaram, Ramkrishna Paramhansa, Vivekanand, Sai baba, Samarth Guru Ramdas etc.
We often went in front of God idols with new demands every time (mostly by bribing him). What if the God demands something from us - Our courage, our examples, our actions to prove that greatness of God?
'Action speaks louder than words' and it has been repeated loudly many times through many verses, in many versions, by many examples but still it is practised in words only. May be I've got a good point to take resolution. I'll try to understand the core values of spirituality to the limit of my mind and boost the inner-self, with self-confidence so that it I can stand against undesired in whatever way. I'll conquer 'lust and gold' to the extent possible without renouncing the world, and prove the greatness of my God, my Guru, whom I belief through example of mine. I'll make awake the God inside me.
I also pray my God to punish me if I ever deviate from my resolution.
Monday, December 29, 2008
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
after a long time...
I feel it's a long time since I've made any entry to my blog. Well, perhaps I am more busy than Amitabh Bachchan or Aamir khan, so not able to maintain my blog very frequently [;)]. By the way, during these four months, lots of important events passed through my life, which .
To make a note of few, I appeared in GRE and comfortably screwed it, I visited home, witnessed Indians turning Maharashtrians and vice-versa, Read lots of hues and crys over so-called Digvijay Singh's Hindu Terrorism, and then also faced what could be the real face of terrorism. Let me also recollect, what were the important events during these days, when I actually thought to express my voice in the blog but couldn't - perhaps when i saw Jesus Christ being worshipped like a Hindu God with flowers and akshat in a temple-kind of structure somewhere in Jharkhand, when I need to write an essay and arguement for GRE exam(I thought it could be a good platform, where other's comments will evaluate my skill), when I visited Vanchit-vikas neehar, an institution of rehabilitation of children of commercial sex workers, during Deewali, when I visited and closely watched the life of people from red-light area, When I saw Indians dying, being beaten up on their soil in the fire of regionalism, when I saw people changing their faith and religion so that they can lawfully embrace their spouse, when I saw Tata's coming out of Singur, when I saw Taj burning, when my damped eyes became unusually red over the reactions of politicians on Mumbai terror attack, when I recently visited Akola to attend a youth camp by Gayatri Pariwar.............and how many more times.
Well I think I am missing something, there are many events, mush more important than this - India got first gold in olympics and Abhinav Bindra got award of more than 5 crores, Indian cricket team proudly beated Australia and england - in one-day as well as test, Rakhi Sawant bagged many controversies, Rahul Mahajan broke the rules of big-boss, Pravathy Omanakuttan just missed one step to became 3rd miss world of India............
You know the problem with the country - Movies don't mimic citizen lifes but citizens copy the screens, sports donot reflect patriotism - patriotism burst out of game, - people have became habituated to live in illusion and forget the truth. Somewhere I read a good quote - "Reality is an illusion caused by alcohol deficiency" - I feel India has became the country of drunkards, where they keep living in imaginary world, most of the times the world created by fancy people, till they die. For example, I don't know how many people not affected by recent terror attack at mumbai, could feel the pain of motherland India, but they'll definitely cry when they see Ritesh Deshmukh dying by a bullet of a terrorist in Ram Gopal Verma's movie with a background score.
If the citizens of a country are like, I couldn't perceive what'll be future of my country. Infact my future too - Will I able to reach a natural death or become a victim of terror attack or a riot due to regional, religional, lingual differences, die in an accident by falling from a highly crowded local or come under a truck due to undisciplined traffic, die of a heart attack or diseases like cancer, aids etc, die of a natural disaster, which perhaps shouldn't be termed as natural but these are actually caused by human exploitation of nature. Probably that is story of each & every citizen living particularly in metropolitans. They die everyday before death, when going out, with the fear that they don't know that will they be able to see the face of wife or children or family again. Still if we can't think up any revolution, I feel we're so habituated to the 'drink' that it has failed our nervous system to think or stand or arise against what is undesired.
To make a note of few, I appeared in GRE and comfortably screwed it, I visited home, witnessed Indians turning Maharashtrians and vice-versa, Read lots of hues and crys over so-called Digvijay Singh's Hindu Terrorism, and then also faced what could be the real face of terrorism. Let me also recollect, what were the important events during these days, when I actually thought to express my voice in the blog but couldn't - perhaps when i saw Jesus Christ being worshipped like a Hindu God with flowers and akshat in a temple-kind of structure somewhere in Jharkhand, when I need to write an essay and arguement for GRE exam(I thought it could be a good platform, where other's comments will evaluate my skill), when I visited Vanchit-vikas neehar, an institution of rehabilitation of children of commercial sex workers, during Deewali, when I visited and closely watched the life of people from red-light area, When I saw Indians dying, being beaten up on their soil in the fire of regionalism, when I saw people changing their faith and religion so that they can lawfully embrace their spouse, when I saw Tata's coming out of Singur, when I saw Taj burning, when my damped eyes became unusually red over the reactions of politicians on Mumbai terror attack, when I recently visited Akola to attend a youth camp by Gayatri Pariwar.............and how many more times.
Well I think I am missing something, there are many events, mush more important than this - India got first gold in olympics and Abhinav Bindra got award of more than 5 crores, Indian cricket team proudly beated Australia and england - in one-day as well as test, Rakhi Sawant bagged many controversies, Rahul Mahajan broke the rules of big-boss, Pravathy Omanakuttan just missed one step to became 3rd miss world of India............
You know the problem with the country - Movies don't mimic citizen lifes but citizens copy the screens, sports donot reflect patriotism - patriotism burst out of game, - people have became habituated to live in illusion and forget the truth. Somewhere I read a good quote - "Reality is an illusion caused by alcohol deficiency" - I feel India has became the country of drunkards, where they keep living in imaginary world, most of the times the world created by fancy people, till they die. For example, I don't know how many people not affected by recent terror attack at mumbai, could feel the pain of motherland India, but they'll definitely cry when they see Ritesh Deshmukh dying by a bullet of a terrorist in Ram Gopal Verma's movie with a background score.
If the citizens of a country are like, I couldn't perceive what'll be future of my country. Infact my future too - Will I able to reach a natural death or become a victim of terror attack or a riot due to regional, religional, lingual differences, die in an accident by falling from a highly crowded local or come under a truck due to undisciplined traffic, die of a heart attack or diseases like cancer, aids etc, die of a natural disaster, which perhaps shouldn't be termed as natural but these are actually caused by human exploitation of nature. Probably that is story of each & every citizen living particularly in metropolitans. They die everyday before death, when going out, with the fear that they don't know that will they be able to see the face of wife or children or family again. Still if we can't think up any revolution, I feel we're so habituated to the 'drink' that it has failed our nervous system to think or stand or arise against what is undesired.
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