To the Lotus Feet of Gurudev

I don't seek any worldly desire,
or even the spiritual ones
As I learnt
that desires beget ambitions
and hence aspirations and ego
which takes me away from you

I don't wish to be trapped                            
In cycle of birth or death
But I don't look for the liberation either
As for me
what's the meaning of liberation

if it takes me away from you ?            

I don't want to contained
with negative emotions
like guilt and fear

Or jealousy and lust 

Or even overwhelmed 

with positive emotions 

like love and care
Or forgiveness and trust
As I fear these emotions
will bind me to the world
and will take me away from you

A desire,
Not to desire anything;
A detachment with the world,
to attach with you;
An emotion
to annihilate all emotions;
And all the manifestations of me
to seek you and you and you
Tell me O' Dear Father!
Is it a kind of affliction
that has fallen upon on me ?!